canal

be beside me, but are you with me?

i can sit by this canal

& feel my heart ripen red in my hands

know nothing of desires

but have everything of my own life to offer-

my scars and smiles

my stitches and sweetness

to risk is a game

& so is love

like every other played

i know i will lose

& i sit by this canal

contemplating-

second guessing

if i'm a fool for challenging fate.