Daydreams

Oh how gray is the sky today.
I spent my day sitting around the house, desperately wishing for blue skies. Jason Mraz helped. I won't deny my infatuation for him. The guy is a lyrical genius and a music prodigy. His music drifts me into Utopia. So I daydreamed a lot today.

& I missed school.

The get well messages and phone calls were sweet. I do feel much better. Moping around the house made me feel pathetic.

So, I attempted to be productive. Quite honestly, that failed. I spent my time day dreaming about my future life ahead, the excitement of University this fall.

6 hours away from home. 5 months left before I leave this town. My future lies at Carleton University. I will be away from home, separated from my family. I keep questioning myself; Am I ready for this? I think I am.

But at the same time, I am afraid that I may not be.

This sort of relates back to my "ready to move on but not ready to let go" philosophy. I am thrilled for what lies ahead. Independence. Freedom. Significantly, embracing ADULTHOOD.

But I will be alone. I will be starting from scratch. I will miss everyone...

& the worst part: I will be doing my own laundry and cleaning.

I chatted with a potential roomate. Her name is Afiqah. That's right "Shafiqah + Afiqah." =) Pretty awesome. She was born in Brunei. She seems sweet. It will be nice to have someone of my ethnicity as roomate. Oh, I am all excited now...

"The only journey is the journey within."
Rainer Maria Rilke