But if you close your eyes,
Does it almost feel like
Nothing's changed at all?
& if you close your eyes,
Does it almost feel like
You've been here before?

-Pompeii, Bastille

i know i may never find everything

or the answers to anything

but i have more than i deserve,

and so much more than i need

even on nights when i feel like i have nothing.

Maybe

Maybe we will always continue looking for home but end up settling for familiarity. And maybe, in between seeking company, we try to convince ourselves there is meaning. When everything is mere ambiguity.

Maybe we are just everything -
in a nothing.
Or maybe we are all just nothing.

Maybe we do all of this,
rationalizing,
justifying,
denying,
feeling-
being.

Because no one likes to feel alone.

feeling vs capability

We all know what love feels like,
maybe we just do not know
how
to
love.

twenty-ninth

maybe it takes a little blurriness to get inspired,

a little diversion to realize what you had

and a little moment of confusion and emotional chaos

to figure out - 

that you've been living the facade 

you have built

with your own bare hands

and you have built with bricks a wall 

between the arrangement of your rib cage

to keep what is wild in place

slow

Here is to
every moment,
in the confined corner
space of a room
slow dancing to inaudible songs
that speak in languages
only our hearts are capable of understanding.

not everything is meant to be understood, but curiosity can make us a little wiser sometimes.